Ramadhan has come to an end. So far, this has yet to be my most memorable and meaningful Ramadhan. Why?? It's for me to know and you not to find out. bahhahaha..kejam tak? =p Kidding.. I'm not making huge leaps, just baby steps. Although i'm taking a step at a time, and the changes that i'm going though is not drastic...but it means alot to me. It’s a new beginning for me. Little things that i find amusing during this year Ramadhan is that i wasn't sleepy at all during Tarawih prayer throughout the month. It may sound simple... it is something to me.. because i have more understanding on the Ibadah. Ok, I shall stop here about my experience during Ramadhan. I don't feel like sharing here..
Actually I want to talk about jealousy today. Life is funny sometimes. People are funny. It wouldn’t be life if everyone is perfect, think the same way, have the same principle, act the same way, have the same opinion, agreeing to every single thing, etc... oh that would be a boring life, right? So, we need all the flaws & conflicts to give a little bit of spices in our life. If we were to choose between being right and being wrong.. I would say 99.9% wants to be right. Meaning doing the right thing either by religion, law, or civilization. Nobody wants to be heading the wrong way. So I guess people will be competing against each other to be on top of everything. Well, that’s good. We all should change for the better. But do you all know that when we try to improve ourselves or do something good, someone is not happy with that. And it’s not Satan. It is someone very close to you that is always revolves in your daily life. I’m not saying all, but there are some. These people are JEALOUS of you.
There are two type of person, person that have a problem with you, and a person that is just psychologically sick.
Well of course the people that have problems with you don’t want you to be ahead of them. (Why do they feel that we are ahead of them anyway??) They will go on and on and on and on bragging about all the good things they’ve done. The major signs is that they start COMPARING. O yeahh.. They will compare from things like who contributed more to the little things like whose dress is more beautiful. SHOWING OFF is another syndrome of jealousy. They like to brag about all the good things that happened to them, brag about their fortune and luck on how Allah has rewarded them. As a person, we can differentiate when people are actually sharing stories because they are truly happy or just to show off. I always welcome people to share their happy stories with me, I love listening to stories... but I can smell when it is just pure showing off.
Psychologically sick. Kind of a harsh word right? haha. This type of people only wants the world to see them as are the only good person. Nobody is better than them. Of course they will deny it because they want to be seen as a holy person, remember?? They won’t brag out loud. They get jealous if you get praise by someone, and that it is not them that people are praising. They will try anything to get people to notice how wonderful they are. Attention seeker. It’s a mental sickness really. If they were actually a holy person, they would have wanted everyone around them to improve with them.
"Kalau hidup hanya mencari penghargaan manusia tidak kekal lama jika cari redha Allah akan kekal bahagia dan tenang. "
But it all come down to being PATIENCE with the temperament of people around us.. fa sobrun jamil ~ =))
Being patience may seems like a never ending thing to do.. but there is always something good that came out of it whether it is sooner or later..